听说，她失恋了

很多人都说只要持续21天，
坚持21天，
习惯就自然地形成了。。。。。。

她呢？
老早就过了21天了
可是为什么她还没习惯
还没习惯没有他的日子

或许他们不是自然的分开
或许他们在闹别扭
或许他们任何一方不敢提
或许有很多的或许。。。

她说，她很想念他
她说，她不敢打扰他
她说，她不想给他压力
她说，她不懂该怎么做

结果！每天就在玩看对方上线与否的游戏
结果！每天只要她看见他在线上她也就快乐

什么？这样就快乐？
嗯，至少知道他过得好好的
没病没痛没大件事
好好的就好。。。

她努力的工作，什么工作都做
她不让自己休息，担心有多余的时间想念
她没胃口吃东西，因为真的吃不下
她睡不着，可是她努力得把自己弄得很累，就能睡下

她想过很多关于他或许的事物
可是她说她努力阻止自己
我说，女人啊！
还是爱自己好。。。。。。

很努力！

每次想要写作的时候

心里总有很多的想法

心里总是有很多想表达

无奈    真正打开了页面

什么都写不出来了

最近词语不达

胡言乱语

思绪不清晰得无法表达

主持人啊，这真的要不得！

想要表达得很多

却说也说不出口

情况好像没什么改变

伤口只是贴上OK绑暂时止血

多少人羡慕的眼光

我懂，我明白

这一切都不是必然

我感恩

我努力

我很努力

很努力继续加油。。。

我要做回那个快乐得自己

停格

是不是忘了那个自强的自己

是不是变得安静listener就忘了给自己说话的权利

是不是体谅的付出都是都理所当然变得应该

do you take it for granted?

好久没回来，玻璃屋开始变得灰灰的
好久没有在这里清理干净
又或则我在等待时机，一起过大扫除
天空的雨水一直掉落
可是天气却还是那么的阳光普超
你在骗谁？

好脏、好脏。。。
到底有多久没回来
钥匙差点都忘了寄放在哪儿
总是要到挂起暴风雨
才想起玻璃屋的存在

也好，至少这里还是安全的
这里变得好大
我却变得很渺小
我自己选择把自己变得渺小
成全那个世界非常辽阔的大男人

《停格》

動情是容易的 因為不會太久
遠∼遠∼的彷彿可以觸摸
留戀是不幸的 因為曾經擁有
夜∼夜∼被思念纏擾著

無奈我們看懂彼此是彼此的過客啊
愛情是個輪廓不可能私有
把最初的感動鉅細無遺的保留心中

不容許讓時間腐朽了初衷

所以放手 所以隱藏 濕透的袖口
不要挽留 不要回頭 記憶續相守

快樂是容易的 因為短暫逗留
不必換算時間磨合
深愛是殘忍的 它不喜新厭舊
你我 同困在這漩渦

無奈我們看懂彼此是彼此的過客啊
愛情是個輪廓不可能私有
把最初的感動鉅細無遺的保留心中
才不容許讓時間腐朽了初衷

所以放手 所以隱藏 濕透的袖口
不要挽留 不要回頭 記憶續相守

花兒枯了 時間走了 沒有不捨得
心臟停了 空氣死了 愛從此停格

hello, NEW BRAIN !

I'm listening to my favourite singer :WANTING - nobody's fault

Currently at my second home : Lewisgene

You might be curious that why is the new brain as my title of today's blog

No way I just felt that something new happening

A new way of facing L.I.F.E ; A new way of behaviour in my mind

For those that knew me well 

I'm truly a WOMEN's POWER kind of person

I dont depend on people to give me anything, but I make it happen by myself

I trust my own ability and I don't beg or wishing someone to help me out if I'm struggled

That's how I move forward and break thru when I'm STUCK !

I truly blessed with what destiny has chooses for me

My family, My love, My friends, My career, My home... everything

it take sometime to keep moving and go all out just to have a break thru

and i could finally said : I've DID it again !!

I learn all the way where I came from

Especially my long vacation at United States and meeting my bestie in Canada

It give a calm refreshment for me in life !!

Rest and having a peace of mind 

STOP doesnt mean that you're stop moving but a rest for you to see it clearly where you going to

Its been too much, I dont regret but its definitely a lesson and a memory of life

I'm glad I make it...

so here am I.. in a new way, a new behaviour, HELLO MY NEW BRAIN

LIFE is surprise... LIFE is changing moment by moment... 

it might be challenging but you will be blessed when you go with it all along !!

so be blessed what has come to you

acknowledge with what is challenging to you 

you will be surprised....

;)

keep smiling.. move !!

so happy that i'm sitting at here writing it what i've experienced and I'm smiling to what is EXPERIENCED !!

Candies in Life

Sometimes we cant deny or to avoid some bitter part of life

perhaps we can do so much to move to a better life

so what you're going to do ?

I love fashion, I dressed up

yes, his name is CHICKY from KFC

He's invited to join us for my nephew's kid birthday party 

I love cute stuff, I hang out at cutie cafe

I love shopping, so I window shopping

( btw uniqlo always have good deals in kids T-shirt and the best thing is : I CAN FIT )

I love mind relaxing, I go Jacuzzi

 I love to sweat, but if i'm lazy to exercise.. this is where I'm hiding thru..

 

I dont mind to casual hang out alone, in fact I love being alone sometimes !

Do silly things if I want to, if i dont want, bestie could force me... LOL

Be who I want to be, I might struggling with some shits sometimes

but I'm very authentic person !

If I care, I take action. If you hurt me, I don't give a fxck!

Had a very very different experienced shooting and program recording

Know NOTHING, Do something NATURAL

we have 4cars of crew team

u can see the small road on the left side

we got up with the climbing truck LOL!

when we got up.. this is the view..

WHAT ?!

what are we gona do...

no idea..

I only know I have body ache very seriously after climbing the whole mountain !!

Be cool, when things happen is what I have to deal

BE LOVED

Leisure with loves

Leisure weekend for the fantastic Japanese food

definitely worth while to woke up early 

obviously I'm in a good mood to woke up without work too 

XOXO

Love the lighting

It seems like my new office lighting too.. so loved..

Perhaps I should listed it as my favourite place too

^.^

WARNING:

Prepare yourself because we will be having a food tour

Let's go..

Starter

Fresh Salt bake Lobster

BBQ fresh Hokkaido Crab

Chawamushi

the waiter intro me this she called it something similar with Japanese " yong tao fu "

All this at the sushi bar, take as much as you in a buffet style

Our Favourite tea :  Japanese Rice Tea

( if you found any nice Japanese Rice Tea do let me know <3 p="">

Last but not least...

the fruit plater !!

SUPER FULL after all the food and still we've finished  everything

In the end, that's what we had whole day till late night only we have our light food as dinner

YUMMY for this quality and awesome food

you should give a try at Troika KAPACHI

;)

Since a professional make up artist strongly intro me a red lip 

I've decided to try on it..

well no doubt it comes out with a new look and I'm loving it

would love to have it more often..

MUAKS

loves, J

The TGIF

Weekdays could be your busy and headache day

I wil have my work arrangement and meetings on weekdays

Weekends your time for enjoying and relaxing perhaps chill with your friends

It would be my headache time, Hosting and talk for non stop

so eventually if you meet me on weekend I might be a quiet person...

now you know why ? LOL

Axiata Cup had my whole month of concentrating 

since its an outdoor host and exercise too much 

its really a tiring yet an awesome event I've worked thru

creating the history of life, It's my first LIVE SHOW on TV ( even its just about 20minutes )

therefore, I got myself some break time on my friday

so... THANK GOD ITS FRIDAY !!

Done with some preparations of work on SUNDAY

at my favourite chilling place with a cup of Hot Cappuccino 

would be my best choice on TGIF

  

I'm now officially coffee lover ( ahem I'm not so sure since when its happen but I AM.. )

YET, I'm a music lover too ( well its been LONG LONG time ago)

so how come this online DJ will do work without music

and so happen that today's music are.... MY all time favourite.. <3 div="">

what's your best companion when you work ?

maybe you can share some with me

so that I can keep a record and add in to my music library

coz... my online radio is coming back in a month time!!

so.. STAY TUNE...

Meanwhile, when i'm home I'm still doing some cleaning ok!
I'm super take care with my favourite collection
like.. seriously... hahaha..

 

If you're wondering, reason to choose small bottle of fragrance 

Bcoz I'm choosing my smell of the day by my MOOD

so... i need more choices and also not to waste the big bottle..

unless its my favourite.. and yeah you know whats my favourite now !

so signing off... 

share my song of the day for you guys...

enjoy ! happy weekend and.. MUAKS! <3 div="">

xo, J

Girlie Open Up, Birthday in 2013

Number is just a number

how you live without regrets and keep improving yourself 

that's how we keep life interesting and we will be young forever!!

Love my awesome fireworks cake

strawberries always my favourite 

 

It's surprise party after my work

Mr.K book Hulks Cafe for the birthday celebrations with some friends

It's a banglo in bangsar that renovated as a cafe

* try google it if you gona host a party soon *

I love their deco in the cafe

but too bad there's a green light at our table and made all the pictures in greenies seems weird

but of course if you have more guest you could reserve a room 

make sure you have 16ppl to get a room

We would not know what the chef prepare for us

just told him how many guest coming up

he will prepare the dish for you

that's why you might have surprise thru out with it! 

Hopefully I will get some photos soon

since its a surprise party so I never bring my camera 

all the photos with those so call camera man.. well they take like ages to edit photo

so you know why ya =@.@=

- party at 2nd home -

Buddies are too busy in the weekend as most of us work in the weekend

so called "celebrities and designers" willing to celebrate with me

I'm blessed 

even though they set me up !!!!!!!! (grrrhhhhh)

 

They request me to wear GREEN pyjamas for the celebration

so i choose boy friend shirt in green with short pants and bring TUTU along for the party

( asume myself to look like sleep wear, DID I ? 给自己翻白眼 omg.. LOL )

worst thing is.. they date me to my 2nd home

which is a coffee place where I always hang out near by my house

I meet friends there, Yam Cha, Meeting, Script writing.. at here

so i'm kind of familiar with the worker in the cafe

can you imagine when you're so close to this place and you suddenly need to wear pyjamas to be here

and yeah.. not to forget with a cute doll... >.<''

once I'm there I knew ... GOTA CHA !!

everyone wearing K pop or street style in RED !!!

can you imagine how awesome is my buddies ...

 they have practise to play a game that they learn from Running Man

* running man the hottest game program in korea *

perhaps before that we have something to warm up

its all about open up myself party

as in...

GAME ON, NO IMAGE, OPEN UP !!

You do, I do..

accept the challenge!!

They never give up of any chances to made me look ugly..

why i lost ?! because they set me up and they have practise in the game by how to made me lose!!!

 of course I would let this happen like forever...

you gona be in the game too !! HMPH~~~

love my creative cake caption :

   

" HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELEGANT BITCH "

 challenge till the end..

we have our latest hair style to mamak stall for drink 

so say..

CHEESE.........

when you open up, dare to take the challenge

you will have the unexpected result...

thanks darlings...

 Present of the awesome age ?

awesome gifts for sure !!

I'm blessed with all the love from all of you

love that never able to buy from the money

love you guys !!!

-muaks-

J